You know what else is this way? Finding an agent. I like to tell myself all the mystery is what makes life interesting. (I also like to delude myself. Coincidence?)
Last April I broke up with my agent of nearly three years. It was necessary, and risky, and terrifying. It meant leaving the only person in publishing who’d thus far agreed to champion my work, in order to find someone else who would, you know, champion my work.
Writing that message was hard. It couldn’t be undone, and there was no guarantee I would find another agent. Worst of all, I don’t ever want to hurt anyone’s feelings, especially someone I like, and someone who gave me a chance before anyone else in publishing ever did.
Some things need to be done, however. This was one of them.
Because my newest book was ready to go — or so I thought — I jumped into the agent hunt fairly quickly. I had my query letter. I had two different synopses. I had a query-specific email address with a unique chime that gave me a miniature heart attack every time it announced a new message. I even had an agent spreadsheet so detailed that my writing buddies took every opportunity to tease me about it — and then asked me to share it with them when they, too, were ready to query. (Vindication feels good, by the way. In case you were wondering.)
I know I promised pictures, but let’s be honest: no one really wants to see my bathroom. So you get Rosie instead. She’s peeved because she doesn’t have opposable thumbs and can’t read all these books herself. Or maybe she just realized she can’t fit in a box that’s already full of something else.
Just over a month later, I received a response to a full request. It wasn’t an offer, but it wasn’t a rejection. It was a revise & resubmit letter from the amazing Suzie Townsend and her assistant Danielle Barthel of New Leaf Literary & Media. Because my life is beyond glamorous, I was cleaning our bathroom at the time. I may have dropped the Windex when my phone dinged. (It’s things like this that keep us humble. And also remind us that anything can happen at any moment.)
Danielle and Suzie’s suggestions were smart and thorough, and they had clearly given my book a lot of thought. Following their requests would take serious work, but I could see how each revision would make the book better. Naturally, I pounced on the opportunity. (If “pouncing” means waiting almost 24 hours to write back and commit, since I wanted all traces of my knee-jerk freak-out gone by the time I pressed send.)
Querying halted, and revising commenced. For two whole months. Finally, I sent the book off. I heard back from Danielle soon after. Another revise & resubmit. But it began with encouragement and ended with more encouragement, and all the words in-between seemed doable when read one suggestion at a time. I agreed to another round. Then I headed up into the mountains because I had a lot of thinking to do. Not only did I have some plotting issues to work out, but I was also concerned about the possibility of spending another two months writing to someone’s specifications and either receiving more revisions or being turned down altogether.
A surprisingly good place to email someone. Also, a good place to hike. And to get showered by falling leaves, if you’re into that sort of thing.
As I crunched along the hiking trail, with golden aspens glowing around me and snow-dusted peaks above, Danielle emailed to see if I had any questions and if I wanted to talk about revisions. I didn’t even know I could get messages up there. It was a delightful surprise. Throughout the day we had a casual email exchange, punctuated by moments when the mountains blocked my signal (pesky rocks) or when I stopped to take pictures. By the end of the day I had eight hundred photos, a quarter tank of gas, and a call arranged with Danielle for the next week to discuss revisions.
When the day arrived, I had my thoughts in order and was prepared to act less nervous than I felt. And then, exactly ONE minute before Danielle called, I received an email from another agent who had the full. It was a long message, and I didn’t have much time since I (rightly) suspected Danielle would be punctual, so I skipped to the end and caught some formal thanks-but-no-thanks language. That’s when I knew it was a rejection, and with the worst possible timing.
Why, hello there, Danielle! Guess what? I’m totally not nervous about our phone call AT ALL! Whee!
As I was catching my breath, the phone rang. Danielle.
Only later did I bring myself to read the new message more carefully. That’s when I realized it was, in fact, another revise & resubmit, saying many of the same things Danielle and I had talked about in our phone call. I immediately let both agents know, and went to work on revising.
And then, a few days later, I received an email from yet another agent. Like Suzie, she was one of my dream agents. She had read my manuscript over the weekend, and informed me she was “pretty much obsessed with” my book. I may have swooned a little when I read that. (Okay, a lot. Several times. I also giggled.)
NOT a good place to use the internet. An excellent place to hike, though. Especially at sunset, and if you like heights.
Our chat was lovely and lively, and she was oh-my-gosh-so-wonderful. Of course, because I am the master of timing, I had maybe a half hour afterward to email everyone else who had my submission and let them know I’d had an offer of representation. Then my four-year-old daughter and I took off on a fourteen-hour round-trip drive across the desert to visit some friends in the Grand Canyon.
You know what’s really awesome, by the way? Spending four days with almost no cell or internet service when you have one offer of representation, twelve full manuscripts out, and a deadline. No, really. It’s fantastic. Sometimes nothing is more freeing than enjoying the beauty and seclusion of nature with little chance that the phone will ring, and with plenty of space for thinking.
And hello to you, too, Suzie! Thank you for your faith!
By the end of it all, I had four offers, including one from Suzie and Danielle, who had received a very first-draft version of my barely-started revisions after I escaped to the Grand Canyon Village library to send them off. Despite the roughness, Danielle and Suzie somehow saw the potential in what I had done so far. I was thrilled, to say the least.
Still, the decision was tough. Every agent who offered was superb, and I would have been happy to be with any one of them. They were charming on the phone, and their clients raved about them, and they had insightful things to say about my manuscript. In the end, however, the answer was clear, and I am ecstatic to announce that I am now represented by Suzie Townsend and Danielle Barthel of New Leaf Literary & Media! They are smart and talented and enthusiastic, and I am so lucky to be working with them.
Thank you, ladies, for believing in me enough to go through two rounds of revisions with me, chat on the phone twice, and discuss this book through many, many emails. I am so happy to be working with you both, and I can’t wait to see what happens with this book and with future ones!
NOTE: Stay tuned! In a couple of weeks I’m going to have an agent-related surprise on the blog. Come back and check it out, or subscribe so you don’t miss it! And if you liked the scenery photos, come visit me on Instagram so we can connect!
How amazing. Patience and hard work pay off. 🙂
I’ve parted ways with agents before. It is never easy.
Thank you, Medeia! Honestly, I never realized how common it is for people to part ways with their agents. As soon as I did it, it suddenly seemed like everyone else I knew had done the same thing.
I loved reading this! And again, I am so flipping happy for you! I can’t wait to see your book on the shelf. I know it will be the first of many!! Suzie and Danielle are super lucky to have you! xoxo
Thank you, Robin! I so appreciate your support over all these years! I love that we can still *pompomswish* for each other, too! xoxo right back atcha!
This is so freaking awesome. Yay, Caryn! On a total side-note I thought you’d appreciate, I’m typing this while a desperate mouse is trying to climb the walls of my kitchen sink to escape his accidental prison. It’s very awkward. I feel like I should put it out of it’s misery but 1. I’m afraid of it, and 2. I’m afraid of it.
Can’t wait for more updates on all this!!!
Thank you, Nikki! And, yes, I DO appreciate your mouse story! I can picture the whole thing in fact. (Need a little color for your book, by the way? This could be fun, since you made the whole thing seem so real.) And, yes, I totally understand not being able to kill it. I can’t look at a little mouse and just end it. I can’t. Can you trap it at all? Box? Pickle jar? Then take it far, far away and release it? Or save it until hubby can dispose of it?
Oh, and we’re STILL dealing with our mouse problem. Those suckers are crafty.
I’m so happy for you! It seems like everyone I know lately has had to find a second agent, which is a little scary for me since I still haven’t found a *first* agent, lol. I’m glad you found a good fit!
Thank you Tiana! Having to find a new agent does seem a lot more common than I ever thought. Or maybe there’s just a lot of that going around lately? Really, though, a lot of people DO stay with their first agents and are very, very happy. It’s just not the end of the world if the first relationship doesn’t work out.
Good luck with your agent hunt! I hope you find your perfect fit very soon!!
Hi Caryn .. thanks for finding me … and congratulations on finding the happy agent for you … at least you’ve gone through the process and I hope that’s the last one for a while ..
Good luck now … and here’s to the future .. cheers Hilary
Hi Hilary! Thanks for returning the visit! I really enjoyed your post, because I always like learning new things, so it’s good to see you on here. And thanks for the congrats! I’ve been pretty excited about it all. Here’s to your future as well! 🙂
Ohhhh… isn’t this process beyond emotional?!?!?! It’s madness… I too switched agencies this year. It’s such a draining and emotional journey—-especially when you love everyone involved. But I loved reading this and I’m so happy with where you’re at! Sounds like this will be a wonderful fit. I’m very excited for you, Caryn! I hope submission and everything goes smooth and wonderful!!!!
Morgan, YES!!! So emotional! And just when you think things are finally on a set course, everything changes. I guess it makes things more interesting, though. I hadn’t noticed you’d switched agencies. I’ve been offline a lot, and have missed a lot of stuff. Congratulations on finding someone new. I hope the transition wasn’t too tough and that you are very happy now. And good luck with your submissions, too!!!!!
What an inspiring story! Huge congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you, Emily! I’m so glad you liked it. I wanted to try to be honest while not depressing anyone with the reality that publishing isn’t always a straight path. (That’s what makes it so interesting, though, right? And it makes the good news ten times more rewarding. Plus it gives all of us writer-people something to commiserate about. :-D)
Wow! That’s quite the roller coaster ride (with some beautiful scenery thrown in. I especially liked the fall meadow.) Glad it had a happy ending. Congrats!
Thank you, Sarah! I think this scenery will be forever entwined in my mind with this whole experience, which I love. And at least the roller coaster ride gave me a story. So much more fun to write a blog post that has a few twists and turns, right? 😉
You ought to frame one of the pictures and put them in your writing area as a cool reminder.
I hadn’t thought about that, but it would be fun! I’m going to have to remember that. First, though, I have to have a designated writing area. (I wish!)
Wahoooooo!!!!! That’s awesome. I have another buddy repped by Suzie and she thinks the world of her and their team. Congratulations!! So happy for you 🙂
Thank you, Jemi!!! And I’m so, so glad to hear your buddy loves Suzie and her team just as much as I do. (And, seriously, it *is* a team, which I adore so much. I know not every agency is like that.) Anyway, I talked to a bunch of Suzie’s clients before signing, which made me feel gossipy in the extreme, even if it’s the professional thing that all potential clients are SUPPOSED to do. Every single one had nothing but good things to say about her. Still, it’s always fun to hear another endorsement. Makes me feel all smiley about the decision all over again. 😀 😀 😀
Congratulations!! What a wonderful story. I hope you have a publishing contract soon.
Thank you, Connie! I’m so glad you enjoyed it. And I second your hope for a publishing contract. Good luck with your books, too! And best of luck if you’re doing NaNoWriMo!